I Am Not Alone

Today I write this post mainly to myself in 2-3 weeks when I am in the middle of supporting my newborn through open heart surgery and reaching the deepest, darkest moments of my life hoping that my child will be ok and survive this first surgery. I have been so blessed by friends and family members who have reached out and shared with me names and blogs of families that have gone through or are currently going through hypoplastic left heart syndrome (HLHS). I am inspired by their stories of success and faith through trials and I appreciate the open community we have to share with and support one another. Even though I see so many who have traveled the many roads of congenital heart defects, even more severe than HLHS, and I know I am not the only mom that will go through this, I still, at times, feel alone. And to that mom, to myself in just a few weeks, I share this quote and post:

"There is no physical pain, no spiritual wound, no anguish of soul or heartache, no infirmity or weakness you or I ever confront in mortality that the Savior did not experience first. In a moment of weakness we may cry out, 'No one knows what it is like. No one understands.' But the Son of God perfectly knows and understands, for He has felt and borne our individual burdens."

Elder David A. Bednar of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles, "Bear Up Their Burdens with Ease," Ensign, May 2014, 90. 

I believe in Christ. He is the only one who has felt my pains and sufferings. He has felt my anxiety and my heartache for this little one and He knows just how to comfort me. I have felt the most peace through Him during this time and so I write to myself to remind me, in the future, that I Am Not Alone!

One of the great consolations of this Easter season is that because Jesus walked such a long, lonely path utterly alone, we do not have to do so. (4:24)